run

i used to confuse softness with weakness

i thought that feeling deeply and leaning in made me fragile,

that loving fully meant losing control.

but there’s nothing strong about shutting off

there’s no courage in building walls so thick that you can’t tell the difference between love and danger.

living in a world solely within the boundaries of your own mind

you mistook your body’s learned defense mechanisms for apathy

Your way of staying safe was to feel nothing and run.

it will never be my job to rescue you from yourself

I hope one day, love feels less like a threat to you, and more like the home it’s meant to be